How are you feeling? Refreshed ? Renewed? Ready to take on the world? Maybe a little sluggish? Existential introspection - if that's a thing?
I have been in a hyper state of frequency these past few months, on our family business and then a very sudden death of our friend which was horrific for us. Then the act of taking care of everyone and not taking care of myself, caught up with me and my neck was in a total state, to the point that I couldn't turn it. My shoulders were inflamed and one was wayy bigger than other. Being a Caribbean Black Woman, I think I unintentionally inherited the curse of, "I'm fine" , "someone needs me", "oh I'll get to it" , "push through girl, it'll be over'' - and none of that happened.
I'm really evaluating my worth, and my spiritual costs, because girl, am I paying for it now! And maybe that's the reason why this Spring Equinox is so different for me. I know all the rituals, the frequencies, even the quantum points to amplify my sense of being, but this year's reminder is the rebirth of everything. A full overhaul of who we are and where we are going and keeping that consistency up. Yes I know the "but I've done that before, and I am doing it" response.
But that's just it, a lot of us want to move to the next phase, what's the next step? - maybe you just need to wait and enjoy where you are, unapologetically, and unexpectedly - meaning don't be caught up in the excitement and the happiness of living, expecting something. Then you're not living.
One of my dear friends passed days before the equinox, no warnings, no accidents, no health ailments, nothing. Woke and passed. To say that, that shocked us and our community is an understatement. I kept replaying it over and over and over in my mind, the message, he worked with us so closely for twenty plus years and he left a huge mark on everyone's life he worked with.
The biggest lesson for me I saw holding close to us, was the transition point between life and death as we await the new energy. Like I know my friend has passed, but I also know he's at peace and God will take care of him, in the way He and She needs to.
I am still processing the right way to articulate my thoughts, the best way I can on this, but for now, just enjoy the new life and new lives that spring has brought, but also thank the winter energy for bringing the lessons and the memories that will remind us to look forward into the future...
to be continued ♥
